So Ramadhan just passed and I went through a spiritual cleanse and decided that it is finally time to change the way I live my life. And this change is change from every aspect; physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and socially.
I am not in the best shape in the world. In fact, the way I was eating and living would have left me with less years to live. I want to be a healthy individual. Recently, I have taken up exercising regularly and eating right. I feel better about myself and have so much more energy. In my genes, there are many of the world’s most fatal diseases, so I am trying to lower my chances of getting them. It is a working struggle, but I am trying.
I have realized that life is too short to focus on petty things and so, I stopped letting the past hold me back. I am now “cool with everyone,” meaning I do not have a problem with anyone. But that does not mean that we are necessarily great friends. I just do not want harm and drama in my life. Also, I have finally realized who the few people who actually matter are. They are my family and a handful of friends that I would categorize as family as well. They are those people that are always there no matter what and that will always be there.
Many people are quite unattractive to me. This does not mean in the physical sense. I have come to like very goal oriented people with good and genuine personalities. I have distanced myself from those that are not like that. It is a stress free social life and I am happy that I am adopting this.
I have been thinking about my future, both in this life and the hereafter. For this life, I made school and education my number one priority. It is vital for me to do well and I am working on not being distracted from my studies. I can become anything I put my mind to, but my laziness and social life tend to come in the way of that.
For the hereafter, I am trying to become a better Muslim. InshaAllah, I will start praying salatul layl and learning the meaning of the Quran. There is just so much history in Islam and I want to be informed of it. I am just reading in general to become less ignorant of the world and what goes on.
In all honesty, I am just trying to be a good person with a positive attitude. I have matured significantly, for when I read some of my old posts, I cringe. My faith in Allah is what keeps me going. These changes have been quite difficult to apply, but I am taking baby steps.
I have never been satisfied with the way I portray myself externally, but I did not know how to go about change. Then, someone came into my life and helped me through it and probably does not realize the impact he has made on my life. I will be forever grateful for that. You honestly never know how your simple advice can affect another person. Also, the support I received from both family and friends made me realize that I can do it.
I am very content with my life and grateful for all that I have. My new lifestyle is something I am glad that I have implemented.